Healthy Choices

OK, first of all, exercising while hungover is NOT easy. Ugh, I have a baaaaad headache. However, I did some reflecting on my walk. I'm making some unhealthy choices. Point in case:

1. This morning I did a drive-by...and saw a certain person's car at El Tóxico's house. Why do I do this? I resist temptation almost always...but he lives literally around the corner...it's hard. My intuition was right and when this person's car was there it reminded me that I don't need to have conversations with her about him (like I did last night). Stay away from drama. And p.s., why are people such liars?

2. I'm spending too much time being sad over the loss of our friendship. We haven't had a real conversation since Dec. 27. I need to let it go. Now.

3. I'm drinking too much in situations where I'm going to see him...which then makes me act stupid. I know better and need to stop. If I'm uncomfortable, I shouldn't go. So it's break time.

4. I need to get my shit together. Clean my house, do my school work, clean my classroom, stop thinking so much about something I can't change.

Alrighty then, that's it.

**Sunday afterthought...one way I dealt with the loss/failure of my relationship with Babydaddy was, in time, making a concious choice to heal by remembering the good times and the shared affection we once had. This is what I intend to do again. I'm reading The Kite Runner. A quote:
"...I wondered if that was how forgiveness budded, not with the fanfare of epiphany, but with pain gathering its things, packing up, and slipping away unannounced in the middle of the night."