No Juice

Ohhhhh...the holidays. Always fun, always work. I spent Christmas with my ex's family as usual. Only this time, I experienced some of the dysfunctionality which usually I'm exempt from. An aunt told me way too personal and slightly crazy stuff at the dinner table (during Christmas dinner) and I spent the night in the same bed with my ex (platonically, but still, it was wierder than I thought it would be). I started the week off feeling melancholy and a bit lonely and being with family helped some but it felt a little odd that they're not really MY family. Maybe next year I should just take a vacation for Christmas!

I'm still questioning a friendship of mine and it feels sucky to think this person will never share some things with me. And suckier to know that I shouldn't care about what he's doing with someone else. And suckier that I think about ending the friendship more than I want to. And even suckier that I'm constantly left with the bitter taste of distrust in my mouth. Oh well.

I haven't done much in the last week. I spent all my money buying presents so now I guess I should concentrate on preparing for next week's lesson plans. I need to get my shit together in the classroom.

I finally get time to read for myself so I've finished My Friend Leonard; now I'll work on Teachers Have It Easy, Lies My Teacher Told Me, Prep, and Julie and Julia.

This was a boring post, no? I seriously need some juice in my life.